Right now, my life feels sort of empty. I keep myself busy during the day, but doing the right thing for me? I think not. I need to find what it is that I need to do. I need to get rid of my "good enough" mentality, and search for something better, and something will help me with what I want in my future. I want to go to art school next year, but as of now, I have been sitting down to the same thing every day, and not really doing anything about my goal and my passion, which is to be able to survive off of my art one day. I need a portfolio so that I can have something to present to this school, but so far I have just been messing around and not getting serious about my art, and hardly having fun with it. I need to quit wasting my time on petty things, like what job I need to save money for this school, and just get a job. There are so many things I should be doing, but just getting myself to make that first step almost kills me, so usually I end up waiting for something to fall into my lap. I need something.